Monday 19 May 2014

"I Want To Move Forward, And I Want To Stand Still"

I've never had too much trouble with dreams and visions. But I've had plenty with making decisions. Sometimes this has led to bouts of doubt filled depression. After all, in a world of choices, and I am fortunate to be blessed with plenty of choice, which is the right one? Really. How do I know?

Even after having made a decision (of course I've made millions in reality) I am often uncommited to my choice. Based on a strange mixture of guilt and uncertainty. I want to do the right thing. For me, for the people I love, for the world I live in. It's a hard cross to bear.

Today I sat for a while trying to work out a way forward. Because indecisiveness, wavering, and uncertainty do not a happy bunny make. Trust me on that.

So I sat for a while. I stopped judging myself. And I had a revelation. It wasn't for anybody else. Just me. But now I've got a mantra to move forward. It's not  very elegant for somebody who loves to play with words. But it's just the job at this midlife crisis time of life (I'm 49 in a couple of weeks). I think I'm going to write a bit more about it on here. Help to work out how to use it properly.

So. Here is my new mantra.

Pick One Thing.

The line "I want to move forward, and I want to stand still" is from my song Have Your Cake And Eat It - September 12th 2012.